To the Mom Who’s Having More Bad Days than Good

To the Mom Who's Having More Bad Days than Good - Being a mom is by far the hardest job I have ever had. I wouldn't change it for the world but that's not to say that some days aren't just plain HARD. Here's my plan for those bad days. #momminainteasy #motherhood #postpartumdepression #mentalhealthawareness

 

To the mom who finds herself thinking, “this mom thing is way harder than I thought,” I am right there with you.

I am having way more bad days than good ones recently and to be completely honest, I have some days where I wish I could just stop being a mom for a while.

This is not a post where I share all the answers about how to get through the bad days. I wish I had those answers and I do believe they will come to me over time, but for now, I am right smack in the middle of learning how to be a mom to a toddler and a baby and some days are just plain messy (in every sense of the word).

Since having our second daughter, I’ve noticed myself slowly losing appreciation for what I have.

I find myself praying for bedtime to come and then, when I realize how bad that sounds, I feel an overwhelming sense of guilt for not enjoying the time I did have that day with my girls.

I knew that two kids would be harder than one, but I underestimated it. Personally, I’m still struggling to find a good balance to all of this.

Before you become a parent, you hear other moms and dads talk about things like not being able to go to the bathroom alone or always having a third party in their bed or having to constantly answer questions for a curious, growing mind. It all sounds kind of funny – until you have kids yourself. Then, all those things can be incredibly overwhelming, and you can begin to lose your sense of self.

To the Mom Who's Having More Bad Days than Good, Mom Life, Depression, Postpartum Depression

Before our second daughter was born, I thought I had the mom thing down perfectly. Me and my then two year old daughter had an awesome routine and we just clicked. She was easy, took long naps and wasn’t the kind of two year old that got into things. I was able to walk out of the room to get something done without having to worry about her getting into trouble.

Life was good. I had found the perfect balance of being a mom and still being me.

Now, I am not only in charge of her but also this little baby that needs a lot of my attention as well.

My days start early and then it all begins – a constant battle of trying to balance playing with them both, keeping up with everything in the house, cooking, washing bottles, making bottles, changing diapers and trying to time the baby and the toddler’s naps to be at the same time because that is the only time I get a small break.

Most of the time I am completely exhausted. I never thought my days would be full of telling someone to get their finger out of their nose (about a thousand times) or having the same fight at every meal about staying in their seat and eating their food, or by teaching another person how to go to the bathroom and how to wipe them self. By being asked over and over “What are you doing?” and “Can you play with me?” By cleaning up spills on floors I just cleaned. The list goes on…

Some days, just the noise alone can make me want to run and hide.

What I am realizing is that, for me, one of the hardest parts about motherhood is just how much everyone depends on me. As a mom, we have to be there for everyone all the time. There’s no days off and some of this just isn’t fun.

As hard and as tiring as it is, I also realize the day is full of a million other things that are amazing.

I love hearing my baby laugh and when she sticks those chubby little feet in her mouth. My heart feels like it’s going to burst when I see my toddler “read” a book to her baby sister. I love watching my toddler get excited and proud when she figures something out on her own. And absolutely nothing is better than when my older one says “I love you Mommy” for no apparent reason or gives me a huge hug out of nowhere.

I know that it isn’t healthy for me to continue the way I’ve been thinking. I need to stop getting stuck in the negativity and the frustration. I find myself wishing for the day when I don’t have to change diapers anymore, or the day that my toddler can dress herself, or the day where they just don’t need me 100% of the time. However, I know I can’t focus on what I am not getting done in the day or what my girls can’t do yet.

I have to make a change. I know it won’t be easy but I don’t want to look back on these days and be reminded of how angry and frustrated I always was. I don’t want to regret appreciating all the things that are also extremely awesome about this part of motherhood.

I want my girls to have memories of a mom who is positive and encouraging. I am FAR from perfect and I know that I will have bad days (lots of them, I’m sure) but it’s how I learn to handle those bad days that will make me a stronger person and a better mom and wife.

Going forward, these are the things that I want to try to practice daily:

THIS TOO SHALL PASS

I’ve heard these words a lot and read about how this simple phrase has helped other moms get through some of the bad times and I get why. At a time when I want to break down because I’ve had too much, I want to remember these words because I know it’s true. Everything eventually will pass and us mom’s are much stronger than we give ourselves credit for.

I WILL BE OKAY

There have been many times where I wonder if I can do this; if I can really get through all the hurdles of motherhood. In those early weeks after we had just brought our second baby home, I kept wondering if I had made a mistake. Maybe I shouldn’t have had a second baby? Maybe I wasn’t cut out to handle everything that having two kids throws at you? Deep down though, I know I am. I know that I will be okay.

CONSTANTLY PRACTICE GRATITUDE

This is something I used to consider myself pretty good at. I pray every morning when I wake up and every night before I go to bed and the first thing I pray about is how thankful I am for the people and the things I have in my life. I noticed, though, that I’ve been praying more out of habit instead of genuinely feeling that gratitude.

I know I have a lot to be grateful for, I really do. I don’t mean to sound incredibly negative here but I thought it was important to share how frustrated and overwhelmed we can feel as moms too. I’ve just been so caught up in the stress and the chaos of life with a baby and a toddler, that I’ve forgotten how much I really should appreciate what I have.

That’s why I vow to make these changes ASAP. I want nothing more than to give my girls all the love and positivity that they give me.

What helps you get through the bad days?

 

To the Mom Who's Having More Bad Days Than Good - being a mom is hard and here I share with you some of my struggles about adjusting to life with two little ones. Depression, PPD, Motherhood, Age of Anxiety, Anxiety After Having a Baby, Anxiety Before Baby, Mom Life #postpartumdepression #mentalhealth #anxiety

Being a mom is hard! I think that we don't talk about this enough. I really struggled after my second daughter was born and went through a very hard time the first few months she was born. #newmom #pregnancy #motherhood #momminainteasy #PPD #mentalhealth #selfcareformoms #yourenotalone


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31 thoughts on “To the Mom Who’s Having More Bad Days than Good”

  • Seriously just thank you. I have a boy and a girl 19 months apart (my girl is the raging toddler these days). And like I saw another mom say, I feel defeated every moment of every day. It’s literally 7 in the morning and I’ve already dealt with screaming, crying, and being told “no” several times. I’m over my day already. I’ve spent the past few days searching Pinterest and other sites for the “perfect” way to discipline and how to control Mommy tantrums. I’m exhausted and I literally read this article agreeing with every single word and nodding my head as if you were talking straight to me. Glad to know I’m not alone. You’re right, this too shall pass!

    • I have searched for those same kind of posts! Well, I’m glad I could help assure you that you aren’t alone. It can feel sooooo lonely, this mom thing sometimes- at least for me anyway. Some days are just really hard! Thank you so much for reading and also for sharing your story. In the meantime, we will just keep reminding ourselves that this too shall pass. 🙂

      • +1 here!….just going though depressione xactly because of this. We just had baby no.4 and Dad needs togo out to study all day.. We homeschool and all and I know they are all 4 blessing but dealing with toddlers and having a newborn is really demanding, I have been extremely angry and sad these days and your article deifnitely rang a bell. I just hope to find hope and joy again as life circulstances are also adding stress to the situation. I just wish I could be a better, kinder mom…I think indeed we lust take things one day at a time and surrender in action to God – it’s what Jesus Christ did and that’s ho he could handle being so kind and loving to mean people….surrendering his impulses to doing good…. Lots of courage to you all, it isn’t easy. Thanks for the article though..

  • Thank you so much! This post was a God send via Pinterest.
    I really needed to read this tonight.
    I’ve got two beautiful, strong willed baby girls who are 11 months apart… I remember being RIGHT where you are right now! Wondering ‘What in the world were we thinking?!’ Questioning whether or not I could handle 2 under 2.
    They are now 4 and 5.
    Where does the time go?! Some days are good, and some days are really bad but I’m beginning to learn that that… Is just motherhood…
    One day at a time.

    • Thank you so much for taking the time to read this! Also, thanks for sharing your experience. Your advice really helps me as well as far as just needing to accept that motherhood really is filled with both good and bad days and that’s just the way it is. I’m sure it gets easier as time goes by as well (I hope). 🙂 Well good luck to you, it sounds like you are doing amazing!

  • I am reading this and I am having the same problem. But I have a 20 year old, 14 year old and 11 year old. Believe me when I say it is easier when they are smaller.
    I am actually at a point where I regret having kids. I know it sounds terrible, and I hate myself for saying it, but that is where I am at at the moment.
    You just manage to get through the problems with the one, then the problems with the next one starts. And in between the two, the 3rd one just make sure that you don’t forget to about them.
    Perhaps I need to go and see a psychologist. Or perhaps I am trying to hard. Or perhaps I am not trying hard enough
    Being a parent in this day and age is much harder than I think it was for our parents.
    Who (or what) do you think is to blame?

    • Ugh I am so so sorry to hear about how you are feeling. I feel the same way most days and I feel awful for wondering if I should have had my second baby (since she is the tough one). I already cried twice this morning and this is just the norm lately. I currently decided to see a psychiatrist because I couldn’t handle what I was feeling anymore. It was taking over every part of my day and my life. I’m still not sure how I feel about the medication but I 100% agree that it’s harder for us than it was for our parents. I just wrote a new post on being a “millennial mom” and I kind of talk about why I think we have it harder. I think a lot comes down to social media. That’s just my own opinion though. I wish I could help you more. You sound so much like me. Just know you aren’t alone. I feel like being a mom is by far the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. Feel free to email me anytime if you just need to talk to someone – I really don’t mind. (electric_mommy@yahoo.com). <3

  • Thank you for your article. I have 3 girls 6,3,2 and this mom thing os so much harder then it seemed it would be. Having one kid isnt so bad . I thought I was doing a awesome job but now i find myself thinking i chewed off more then i can take. Definitely feel like i need mental help some days. Im very blessed to have HEALTHY children and don’t want to feel ungrateful for what God has givin me. Thank you for your post

  • I have 3 boys-17,12,&7. I still can’t find a balance between being their mother and finding myself. Being a single mother, I’m sad and frustrated most days and it’s tough to get through. It brings some comfort to know other moms are feeling as I do. Hopefully, in time, things will get better for all of us!

    • Yes! That’s why I feel like it’s SO important for us to talk about the hard times just as much as the good times. We shouldn’t have to feel alone. I’m sorry to hear about your situation. Being a single mom must be incredibly hard but I do believe things always get better. 🙂

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